I am special because...

            Each one of us is special in our own little ways. God made us special and He gave us special characteristics, talents and abilities that no one can ever have.

            I can say that I am special because God created me, as me. I am the only person that’s existing as Cher- Calvin Velasco. I never pretended to be someone I am not just to reach the expectations of other people. I want people to love me as me. I don’t even care if there are people out there who hated me a lot on their entire life as long as I keep being myself. I do not let other people to stop me from being who I really am and what I want to be. As long as I don’t hurt anyone, why would I even bother? I always take risks to make changes and improvements for myself. I am not afraid to fail because failures are way to success because how would you feel the true value of success if you don’t even know how it feels like to be a failure. I am the type of person who doesn't know how to give up because at the first place, I wouldn't start doing a thing if I know I can’t stand with it and I can’t finish it. Well, of course it gets difficult at some time, so, what I always do is pray because prayers are the most powerful thing. It can defeat all the negative energies on earth. We just need to have faith in God.

And I guess that’s what makes me special. 

A Letter For My Mom and Dad

Dear Mom and Dad,

            I know I’ve been such a stubborn child to you. I’ve given you so many headaches which sometimes made you to regret me as having your daughter. And I am so sorry for that. I am so sorry for everything I’ve done without even realizing all the things you’ve done to me and for all the sacrifices you’ve done for me to be happy. Sorry if I always disappoint you and do not meet all your expectations for me. Sorry if sometimes I became rebellious. Maybe it was just part of adolescence where I find myself and who I really am. Sorry for all the pains I’ve caused you. Sorry if there were times that seems I don’t care about you and do not appreciate you. Sorry for taking you for granted. I promise I’ll be better. I will make you proud for in the future, all your hardships in raising me are all worth it. I know how hard it is to raise a child. It’s like building a skyscraper. Thank you for risking everything for me. You even risked your own life for me when you’re about to give birth to me. And I wanted to thank you for that. Thank you for everything. I love you, mom and dad.

Love,

Chezka

Regrets

Every day, we cannot assure its going to be a wonderful day. All of us have to experience having a hard day in order to grow up and to learn something from it. We cannot make sure that the decisions we chose are right and for the better. Life isn't just that easy. It is not a game where you can play all day long to be happy. And at some time, you may use a cheat code when it gets hard. Life can be very complicated. But we may overcome it with the help of our Father in Heaven. 

I've experienced different challenges in life and most decision I make, turns to worsen the scenario. I've made a lot of mistakes. People always say everything happens for a reason but most of them I couldn't tell why. Like, why did it happen? Why should it happen? What will happen if I did the other way around? Will it make the situation better? Things like that. I always pray to God to give me the answers but I guess I should find it myself.

Most Unforgettable Memories

We people, have our own paths in life. Everyday is a new adventure. Every day, we keep struggling and fighting for what we believe is right and we never get tired of standing all over again. Each one of us has different experiences and memories that we cherish. Good or bad, these experiences that we had can improve us and make a better person in the future all we have to do is to learn from it and take everything positively.

As for me, a fifteen-year-old student in third year high school, I had a lot of experiences. But I honestly cannot remember most of them. All I remember were the things that made me laugh, cry and the things that really had a great impact on me. Well, most people say that the third year level is the most difficult level in high school. Maybe it's because new adjustments on new lessons such as Chemistry, Analytic Geometry and Physics which frustrate most students. It took me a couple of months to adjust with these changes. It was really hard for me to get used to it because I had my new section, new set of people to make friends with and most of all, I got separated with my best friend who used to guide me all the way especially to the subjects I'm having difficulties with such as Mathematics.

It really is a big change. But I do have a lot of memories with it. Honestly, I had a lot of 'first times' during my third year in high school. This was the first time for me to do such thing as blogging, jazz chant and conventional speech choir which I enjoyed very well. To have an overwhelming role as Juliet of William Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet which I'm dreaming since I were 7.

With all the memories I had, I consider one of them as the most precious of all. It was when we need to make different letters and give them to the person we are intend to dedicate it to. I grab this opportunity to open up my feelings and express it to the people I love the most. We have this love letter thing. At first I am hesitating if I really would give it to him or not. I don't want to be dishonest so I decided to give it to him. It was really a shame on me especially when he knew I was the one who sent the letter. Whenever I passed in front of him, all of his friends were looking at me and I thought they were laughing about me. But I was wrong. It's just that he replied to my letter. Although I know from the start he doesn't feel the same way too, I was really glad that he replied and he appreciated it and I wasn't expecting for that. And I was really overwhelmed that the first person to notice my potential in writing is the most special person to me. So, I'm encouraged and inspired to improve more in writing and I'm really looking forward on writing a book in the future. A dream that I abandoned a long time ago.