A Dialogue Between The Mind and The Heart

Mind: 
I shall command thee, 
And let me be thy ruler
I beseech thy eyes to see,
Thy ears to hear,
Thy mouth to speak
For I am superior

Heart:
Thou canst beseech thy eyes to see,
Thy mouth to speak,
Or thy ears to hear,
But ye wilt not command me to what I feel
I am responsible for thy feelings
For without me, thou feel naught

Mind:
I shall tallt before thee,
I control everything,
I can tell to what thy heart feel
Why thy heart bleed
Why thy heart over joy
But the heart cannot do what I do
Nor tell why thy mind is so powerful

Heart:
 I may not tell why
Even if I wonder why
Thou can only tell what I feel 
But thou cannot control it
Thy heart may bleed,
Thy heart may overflow with tears
Thy heart may over joy
But thy mind cannot stop it
Nor command thee

Mind:
I tell people what they want
What thou should pick
What decision to dost
Mind shall always win over thee
No one can stand against me

Heart:
Thou can't tell what other people desire
Thou can't tell what to do
Thou only make people live with sin
And do reckless things
But thy heart teaches thou mind to forgive, to love 
And beseech thy soul to stay as pure as it was

I am special because...

            Each one of us is special in our own little ways. God made us special and He gave us special characteristics, talents and abilities that no one can ever have.

            I can say that I am special because God created me, as me. I am the only person that’s existing as Cher- Calvin Velasco. I never pretended to be someone I am not just to reach the expectations of other people. I want people to love me as me. I don’t even care if there are people out there who hated me a lot on their entire life as long as I keep being myself. I do not let other people to stop me from being who I really am and what I want to be. As long as I don’t hurt anyone, why would I even bother? I always take risks to make changes and improvements for myself. I am not afraid to fail because failures are way to success because how would you feel the true value of success if you don’t even know how it feels like to be a failure. I am the type of person who doesn't know how to give up because at the first place, I wouldn't start doing a thing if I know I can’t stand with it and I can’t finish it. Well, of course it gets difficult at some time, so, what I always do is pray because prayers are the most powerful thing. It can defeat all the negative energies on earth. We just need to have faith in God.

And I guess that’s what makes me special. 

A Letter For My Mom and Dad

Dear Mom and Dad,

            I know I’ve been such a stubborn child to you. I’ve given you so many headaches which sometimes made you to regret me as having your daughter. And I am so sorry for that. I am so sorry for everything I’ve done without even realizing all the things you’ve done to me and for all the sacrifices you’ve done for me to be happy. Sorry if I always disappoint you and do not meet all your expectations for me. Sorry if sometimes I became rebellious. Maybe it was just part of adolescence where I find myself and who I really am. Sorry for all the pains I’ve caused you. Sorry if there were times that seems I don’t care about you and do not appreciate you. Sorry for taking you for granted. I promise I’ll be better. I will make you proud for in the future, all your hardships in raising me are all worth it. I know how hard it is to raise a child. It’s like building a skyscraper. Thank you for risking everything for me. You even risked your own life for me when you’re about to give birth to me. And I wanted to thank you for that. Thank you for everything. I love you, mom and dad.

Love,

Chezka

Regrets

Every day, we cannot assure its going to be a wonderful day. All of us have to experience having a hard day in order to grow up and to learn something from it. We cannot make sure that the decisions we chose are right and for the better. Life isn't just that easy. It is not a game where you can play all day long to be happy. And at some time, you may use a cheat code when it gets hard. Life can be very complicated. But we may overcome it with the help of our Father in Heaven. 

I've experienced different challenges in life and most decision I make, turns to worsen the scenario. I've made a lot of mistakes. People always say everything happens for a reason but most of them I couldn't tell why. Like, why did it happen? Why should it happen? What will happen if I did the other way around? Will it make the situation better? Things like that. I always pray to God to give me the answers but I guess I should find it myself.

Most Unforgettable Memories

We people, have our own paths in life. Everyday is a new adventure. Every day, we keep struggling and fighting for what we believe is right and we never get tired of standing all over again. Each one of us has different experiences and memories that we cherish. Good or bad, these experiences that we had can improve us and make a better person in the future all we have to do is to learn from it and take everything positively.

As for me, a fifteen-year-old student in third year high school, I had a lot of experiences. But I honestly cannot remember most of them. All I remember were the things that made me laugh, cry and the things that really had a great impact on me. Well, most people say that the third year level is the most difficult level in high school. Maybe it's because new adjustments on new lessons such as Chemistry, Analytic Geometry and Physics which frustrate most students. It took me a couple of months to adjust with these changes. It was really hard for me to get used to it because I had my new section, new set of people to make friends with and most of all, I got separated with my best friend who used to guide me all the way especially to the subjects I'm having difficulties with such as Mathematics.

It really is a big change. But I do have a lot of memories with it. Honestly, I had a lot of 'first times' during my third year in high school. This was the first time for me to do such thing as blogging, jazz chant and conventional speech choir which I enjoyed very well. To have an overwhelming role as Juliet of William Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet which I'm dreaming since I were 7.

With all the memories I had, I consider one of them as the most precious of all. It was when we need to make different letters and give them to the person we are intend to dedicate it to. I grab this opportunity to open up my feelings and express it to the people I love the most. We have this love letter thing. At first I am hesitating if I really would give it to him or not. I don't want to be dishonest so I decided to give it to him. It was really a shame on me especially when he knew I was the one who sent the letter. Whenever I passed in front of him, all of his friends were looking at me and I thought they were laughing about me. But I was wrong. It's just that he replied to my letter. Although I know from the start he doesn't feel the same way too, I was really glad that he replied and he appreciated it and I wasn't expecting for that. And I was really overwhelmed that the first person to notice my potential in writing is the most special person to me. So, I'm encouraged and inspired to improve more in writing and I'm really looking forward on writing a book in the future. A dream that I abandoned a long time ago.

O FATHER IN HEAVEN, THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME PARENTS

Dear Father in Heaven,

I don't know how to thank you for giving me parents. Thank you for letting me have them while they are still alive. I know there are lots of children who doesn't have parents beside them. Parents that will give them a warm embrace when they cry. I know some, doesn't even met their parents yet. Thank you for letting me meet my parents and be with them as I grow up.

Almighty God, I want to say that I am so sorry for taking my parents for granted. I know often times, I don't let them feel loved but like crap instead. I am so sorry. I know the word sorry isn't enough for all the things that I have done. If I could only bring back the time that I had wasted arguing with them and hurting them, I really would. I know I am a fool for treating them like that. For treating your precious gift to me like trash.

I love my parents so much. Its just that I don't know how to express love to them. I don't even know how to show it. Please help me O Lord to make beautiful memories while my parents are still on my side. Thank you for letting me have them. For without them, I won't be able to see how wonderful the world is. Thank you for giving me parents that served as my crutches when I can't stand alone. For giving me a warm embrace and a shoulder to lean on when I cry. For giving me love that I cannot find somewhere else or to anyone else. Please bless them and give them good health so that I could be with them for 30 more years. I want them to be proud of me and see me succeed for them to say "Look at her now, and the life she has. We've raised her well."

I promise to you Lord once I finished my studies and succeed. I am the one who will take care of them like they did when I was still a baby. I will love them every single day. I won't let a single minute to be wasted and let a day pass without saying I love them so much.

Sincerely Yours,
Cher

Jesus I Want to be With You, My Savior, My Friend

If I am to meet one person right now, or to meet one person before the end of the world. I would proudly choose Jesus. It has been a long time since Jesus was born. He grew as a very noble man. He is a very intelligent man and the best teacher. He explained difficult and complicated things in an easy way which everyone would understand. Jesus taught the people wherever he can find them. We can learn many things from other people but we can learn the most important things from Jesus, the Great Teacher. We can read Jesus' words through the Bible. Every time we heard those words from the Bible, we are like talking to him. The reason why Jesus became a Great Teacher is because God taught him, his Father. Jesus loves us very much. He wants to help us learn about God. He also loves children. The children love talking with him, sharing stories with him, so as Jesus. Sometimes, I wish I lived during those times, that I am one of the children who are sharing stories with him, laughing with him, and learning the most important things with him. I wish I am that child who used to talk with Jesus personally, and see him personally. Those children are really lucky to have him beside them, who can touch him, who can hug him. I really wish I was one of them. But the thing is, Jesus is now in Heaven with God, so the only way I could be with him and talk to him is through prayers and by reading the Bible. 

My father told me that whenever we are talking about him, or about the Bible, he is with us, listening to our conversation. We just have to seek for his presence. I really love God and Jesus. Jesus saves us. He describes himself as a door.  In using such a simple item to describe himself, Jesus makes it clear that he is accessible to all people. He is not unobtainable, set apart in the heavens and untouchable. He came to earth so that he could be near to us, to be touched by us, and to be known by us. Through him, we gain entrance into the eternal kingdom of our God. As you worship the Lord today, rejoice that he is the God who came near to us. We shouldn't keep him at arm's-length! We need to draw close to Jesus today. He longs to be close to us. That is why I want to meet Jesus, to see him, to be with him. That is why I can proudly say that I LOVE JESUS VERY MUCH.